You know you have the one when…

If you really think about it, life is a journey that is much nicer if shared. Sharing by its very nature is hard because that means that you must give up something. I find it very hard to give up anything. The people that know me would say different because I seem to share everything, if it is mine then by default it is yours but that is just stuff....like shoes well those that know me know that I don't share my shoes because no one wears a size 15....but you get the drift.

Well, after this morning it hit me. I know how you know when you have found the one. It comes down to this.... can I and do I want to share the hard stuff with this person. My girl is smart, funny, giving and well, hot and I don’t find it hard sharing or giving up anything for her. She understands much more than she let’s on and makes everyone feel good about just being. She left us today for a quest that she has wanted for over five years. She sacrificed, she endured and now the world is going to realize the greatness that the lucky few have know for years.

Almost with out fail, for the last two plus years I have told her every morning as she goes to work, “Be great, go do your great things,” and she smiles with a smile that warms everything and says her patented, “No baby, you are so silly.” I guess I didn’t realize that it was going to be that hard today to say, “Be great, go do your great things,” at the airport as I watched her move ever closer to realizing the goal that she set five or so years ago. By telling her that I was saying I trust you, I believe in you and it’s going to be OK. Now don’t take that the wrong way, I do believe in all those things but, DAMN, it was hard to say.

This goal of hers and now mine was set PCTJ (Pre-ChinatownJo), with a guy who did not realize greatness when he saw it and let her leave….not leave like she left this morning, but leave because he could not share the hard stuff. I am very glad about that actually… what a dumbass. When he looks back on that decision it could be as tragic as choosing beta over VHS or thinking that eight tracks are going to make a coming back.

I realized today that change, separation and sadness are the hardest things to share. I wanted so much to say, don’t go, stay with me, but how could I. She is my teammate and we share everything because if you don’t share the hard stuff then it is not a journey, it is just a series of day trips. Sharing the hard stuff is what we all want but are too scared to try. My teammate makes me want to share the hard stuff because I could never settle for just day trips with her.

She is completely the one… my girl…Be Great and go do your Great things.

Thought you should know....

Long day at therapy… I thought everyone should know a few things about me and what I am thinking about today. I don't always use sunscreen even though Al tries to put it on me all the time. I jaywalk ALOT. I don't wear a seatbelt when I'm riding in the backseat. My cholesterol is borderline, yet I eat a lot of pork… OK I eat a lot of everything. I have been swimming when I have had to much to drink and I never wait an hour after eating before getting in the pool. I’ve also been swimming in the ocean when a lifeguard isn’t present… it’s true. I have been known to talk on the phone and take showers during severe lightening and thunderstorms. I smoked cigarettes. I was a pyromaniac as a child. FRIEND and I would light pinecones on fire and then drop them when the flames got too close to our hands….caught FRIEND’S hay barn on fire once. I leave the TV on even when no one is in the apartment. I like candles. I also drink waaay too much alcohol. And the worst, I have been known to sop gravy up with my finger in front of dinner guest that I just met…all true.

CTJ's top 25

As a sports lover, I am in search of the perfect poll. I haven't found it so I'll just make my own. I think I am going to declare Monday's as the CTJ's top 25......

1. Southern Cal (Offense still nation's best)
2. Texas (Won by 35 despite subpar game)
3. Virginia Tech (A notch below TX, USC)
4. Georgia (Shockley injury could be fatal)
5. Alabama (Defense keeping Tide alive)
6. Miami (Game vs GA Tech postponed)
7. UCLA (Another great Pac 10 offense)
8. LSU (Les Miles STILL sucks, sorry Gator, I still love you)
9. Ohio State (Offense coming around; look out)
10. Florida State (Beat Duke; sorry OSO)
11. Boston College (Big game vs Va Tech this Thurs)
12. Notre Dame (Rolled over BYU)
13. Penn State (Joe Pa is still old and can't relate)
14. Wisconsin (The Big 10 is weird)
15. Oregon (Got by Arizona)
16. TCU (Only one loss for Horned Frogs)
17. Florida (Big game vs GA this week)
18. West Virginia (The Big East is baaad)
19. Texas Tech (Exposed by Texas defense)
20. Fresno State (Can they challenge USC?)
21. Northwestern (Nice to see them playing well)
22. Tennessee (Squeaked by Auburn)
23. Tennessee (Heartbreaker)
24. California (Don’t look like they can beat USC)
25. Minnesota (See: Wisconsin)